It’s hit me a few times in the last couple of weeks: For the first time since I can remember – possibly ever – I’m actually, truly, fully, HAPPY. I mean the kind of happy where you fall asleep with a smile on your face and wake up ready to dive into the next day with nothing but excitement and determination.
Which is totally nuts, when you think about it. Right now I should be totally stressed out and panicky. I don’t have a “real job.” I don’t have any sort of income. I’m living on a very specific budget. Despite that, between living expenses and expenses for Accompl.sh, I’m still pretty quickly emptying out my savings account.
When I left Etsy I said I was giving myself until March to get my act together. It’s March and, well, my act still isn’t together, but for the first time everything seems like it’s starting to come together. My development skills are the best they’ve ever been, I have a super clear picture of where I want to take Accompl.sh in the future, my relationships with friends and family have never been stronger, and my health is in a much better place and still improving.
I find myself working from 10 or 11AM straight through until 3 or 5AM and I can’t think of anything else I’d rather be doing. It’s the most amazing feeling in the world.
Apparently money can’t buy happiness. But having enough money to sustain being able to do what I love for the last 5 months has made me so incredibly happy and fulfilled. I don’t have a yacht or a penthouse or even a new iPad, but I wouldn’t trade these last 5 months for ANYTHING and I’m going to do everything possible to make sure that I can buy this kind of happiness for the rest of my life.